Jul 2 2018 ---
It is a monday. I realize I munch like a maniac...Loud munching....when I am pissed off. Like Violence in the mouth. Grind the words, you can't say, only the words are munchies. Peanuts, Cashewnuts, chips, carrots...whatever.
Sigh.
I have so much to do...but it's like forget on friday and more than half a work day has passed of monday and I cannot remember what I have to do. I have to do something. There is a bloody 20 hour training I need to complete for the AI thing. Coordinate 3 implementations.
And I have nothing else, so I must do these to the best of my ability. No excuse to say I am bored, when I do not even attempt to do what I have to do.
A strange headline has gripped the nation since yesterday. Somewhere in delhi, 11 members of a family were found dead. 10 by hanging and one by strangling. Atleast 9 of the 10 found hanging were also gagged and blindfolded. So far police has advanced 'Occult related mass suicide' as an angle. No one in India trusts the Delhi Police so I don't know what to make of this bizarre claim. I think everyone feels this is a murder and an execution of a whole family. Maybe with time some semblance of truth will come to light.
I am so...bored of writing. Life is the same old repetitive boring pattern of stories. Or maybe it's just the day. I am so restless and so bored with the usual in life...I don't feel excited enough to talk about anything. This could also be classic bout of depression. I just want to leave this Job...this city. I need a change!
Now onto Psychedelics. For a long time now I am interested in the topic of LSD. I hate the word drugs, and was born with a (strangely so) hatred of the word Drugs. I cant even figure out why though. No one could tempt me to take drugs. I have never been impressed and all the drug addicts one sees in documentaries are scary as hell. Nothing in movies that is depicted about taking drugs, is at all impressive and would tempt anyone half way sane to try. Infact, I credit Doordarshan serials with scaring living daylights out of me with regards to drugs. All drug addicts were shown looking horrible; black circles and red eyed desperate beggars. That perception stuck. Infact when I read the memoir 'Harley Loco' by the late Rayya Elias, it confirmed that perception. She candidly details her years of being an addict and what levels of addiction and depravity she stumbled into. And it was scary. Unpleasant. I had to stop reading for a while to deal with it. BUT LSD is different. In the confusion of the 60's, people mixed LSD and POT and other drugs. Ever the nature of human psychology and behavior...never to know when something is good enough. One is a mind altering drug that is not addictive, the other one is. And LSD or psychedelic drugs alter the mind very differently. One gives you an experience where you are extra conscious. Another where you are a bit off. And the escapist one..is the addictive one. No guesses. Here is a link to an article on BBC today (July 2 2018). https://www.bbc.com/news/health-44575139 . The article title is "
It is a monday. I realize I munch like a maniac...Loud munching....when I am pissed off. Like Violence in the mouth. Grind the words, you can't say, only the words are munchies. Peanuts, Cashewnuts, chips, carrots...whatever.
Sigh.
I have so much to do...but it's like forget on friday and more than half a work day has passed of monday and I cannot remember what I have to do. I have to do something. There is a bloody 20 hour training I need to complete for the AI thing. Coordinate 3 implementations.
And I have nothing else, so I must do these to the best of my ability. No excuse to say I am bored, when I do not even attempt to do what I have to do.
A strange headline has gripped the nation since yesterday. Somewhere in delhi, 11 members of a family were found dead. 10 by hanging and one by strangling. Atleast 9 of the 10 found hanging were also gagged and blindfolded. So far police has advanced 'Occult related mass suicide' as an angle. No one in India trusts the Delhi Police so I don't know what to make of this bizarre claim. I think everyone feels this is a murder and an execution of a whole family. Maybe with time some semblance of truth will come to light.
I am so...bored of writing. Life is the same old repetitive boring pattern of stories. Or maybe it's just the day. I am so restless and so bored with the usual in life...I don't feel excited enough to talk about anything. This could also be classic bout of depression. I just want to leave this Job...this city. I need a change!
Now onto Psychedelics. For a long time now I am interested in the topic of LSD. I hate the word drugs, and was born with a (strangely so) hatred of the word Drugs. I cant even figure out why though. No one could tempt me to take drugs. I have never been impressed and all the drug addicts one sees in documentaries are scary as hell. Nothing in movies that is depicted about taking drugs, is at all impressive and would tempt anyone half way sane to try. Infact, I credit Doordarshan serials with scaring living daylights out of me with regards to drugs. All drug addicts were shown looking horrible; black circles and red eyed desperate beggars. That perception stuck. Infact when I read the memoir 'Harley Loco' by the late Rayya Elias, it confirmed that perception. She candidly details her years of being an addict and what levels of addiction and depravity she stumbled into. And it was scary. Unpleasant. I had to stop reading for a while to deal with it. BUT LSD is different. In the confusion of the 60's, people mixed LSD and POT and other drugs. Ever the nature of human psychology and behavior...never to know when something is good enough. One is a mind altering drug that is not addictive, the other one is. And LSD or psychedelic drugs alter the mind very differently. One gives you an experience where you are extra conscious. Another where you are a bit off. And the escapist one..is the addictive one. No guesses. Here is a link to an article on BBC today (July 2 2018). https://www.bbc.com/news/health-44575139 . The article title is "
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